things i have learned in therapy (or life reminders)

you are responsible for your energy
tolerance goes both ways
people are more sensitive than you realize
be careful with words for this reason
you're in this relationship for the long run
so is he
he's not like that
thoughts, circumventing logic, thining it's real
empath; let's not get into that

morning

there is something beautiful, almost sacret about the morning. not as many people around. new beginning and all. sun rising. the rest of the family is sleeping. i like that. why can't they sleep the whole day. then i don't have to deal with them and have any problems.

writing in the morning helps

writing in the morning helps

writing in the morning help there's a lot to get out of the mind to start a new day. artist's way calls it brain drain or morning pages. i'm really enjoying. they think i'm writing a book. maybe that's the ultimate goal. but, for now i just want to write, doodle, dabble. earthquake in virginia. that's so freakin' crazy. like, literally crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
pretty cool, thought, huh?
jennah looked so amazing in her photo.
a pang of jealousy came over me and than it exited and i was happy for her

3 pages morning pages

i wish that there was something interesting in my life to write about. lately, i've been feeling more healthy. finishing tasks has been a big relief. using a lot of bleach. need to find that environmentally friendly bleach, man. paid my 25 cents overdue fine on artist's way. love that book. love that my friend gave it to me when i was living in hawaii. it helps to get in the right direction. it really, really, does.
going to therapy twice a week.
what a difference
there's a lot left to learn about my emotions
and restraining them
love this
typing at panera
writing with my mind
mind body spirit
we walked yesterday
what shoud i do for my spirit
hmmmmmmmmmm the beach?
can't go wrong with that?

must

lose the musts, have to's, should's, could have's, wouldn't
the finites dude
the finites
live compassionately
freely
uninhibitedly
be you

brain drain

brain drain dude so much in myt b
so much in my brain that is going on out of my self into you can we make love like we never have before i know you love me that much i love you that much isn't it go
won't it be an interesting next 10 days
loving you adoring you loving you adoring you
getting in touch with myself the next 10 day
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go go goo
touch
be pure
can't you see
man

million

what kind of hug was that last night are you mad at me could you tell i was weird about the buffet my imagination circumvented logic i really DO need to write now it's a need not a way to make a living
oh my how do things get this way i have to work with the poor or something


maybe i should start up my ice cream business
who knows?

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sitting in cafe
sipping
eating
relaxing writing
manager scribbles
families are in
talking
too lazy to cook
let's go out to the cafe and grab a bite
hi

is greed contagious

really is it? is it arrogant to judge another human to be arrogant? like the stock traders and their management who seem to maniputlate the market to their political whims? greed. i want more this is not enough. this is not to my liking. more . more. more .. really . to be grateful is the deepest level of spiritualty and i heard that's how to get to the next level. but, isn't that greedy to want to get to the next level and not like this.