like the wind

sometimes like the wind
everything just
well
works out
and
it feels
well
just right
you look up and
think
i like this
this is new
this is really cool
but that
trust thing
that trust thing
really haunts me
haunts me
i don't like it
he just hit his head on the corner of the kitchen cabinet
poor thing
you saw that
he asks
almost in blame
in pain
oouch
that did look like it hurt
or it hurts
drama
trauma
should i have answered the phone
i don't know
i would call you
but we are close
she did say people who spoke only spanish didn't feel comfortable taking her to the hospital
they are together
it haunts me

obliviousness

i've done worse i'm writing is that okay are there assumptions that i am supposed to join the woman in the kitchen cooking cooking is there an assumption that i am supposed to clean cooking cleaning caring for the children fighting with myself am i a sellout but taking on the MOST important job in the universe and doing it compassionately kindly taking care of my gosling or is it goosling so beautiful cuddling with daddy right now cuddling cuddling calling from that lady who i think is trouble we don't need two crazy people it's catchy or am i just superstiuos
ramblings
make this easier
for the reader
didn't eve mean for the "er"s at the end to work like that
but life is like that
it rambles
on and on
i go to "huck e. cheeese"
"chuck" e cheese
i really don't like that correcting
or even teaching
but i like the love
the growth the learning
don't like the scutiny
but
really in our family
that's nothing new
nor is it new in the family i married into
does that make me a hipocrit
for juding the judging
that thing takes effect