mr. einstein

had the theory of everything
or wanted to write the theory of everything
it's okay to attempt something
and not totally achieve
ya know?
is life art
do people lie?
i'm i paranoid?
sick of it?
scared?
weak?
unstable?
strong?
well
i've read enough books to improve myself
matter is made up of particles
but particles change as we observe them
matter is made up of strings
a pull and a tug
tiny invisible particles
life is a wave in the ocean
kind of

friend recommended journaling to work out my crazies
thoughts
paranoia's
insecurities
reactions to thoughts, paranoia's, and insecurities
sorting through
them
navigating them
are they the farthest distance from the present moment
from what is good
from what is clarity
overthinking
happens a lot when i'm home from 1 pm on
way way
rah rah
uhuhuhuh
used to be so very creative
now i seem to be too busy making breakfast and other domestic things
or maybe i'm not healthy
i want to heal
i want to be healthy
in charge
happiness
not always all it's cracked up to be
i just wanna be my authentic
self
everything else
who cares