how does the brain work?

sometimes i want to understand how the brain works
understand how my mind works
i want to understand myself
i want to understand the world
this interest has been with me my entire world
i'm happy to report i used to question God
constantly
constantly
mostly within my own mind
but
now
slowly
but
surely
i feel more of an awe
not understanding has become more of a respect for the intricacies of the timing of things
the divinity of timing
when the babies are born
when the trees gow
how the traffic flows
do you ever sit back
and just think
how does all of this work?
i though this recently
then
the stock market crashed
i felt it coming
i wouldn't say i predicted it
but our country building quick wealth while we were in a war
hmmm
not natural
it goes against the laws of mother nature
so much to learn
but i feel like i am me
i am a mother
isn't that crazy?
i feel insecure
but lately
i've been asserting myself
i think security and self worth
comes and goes
i think there are people who feel small and it spreads
i hope to be the person who feels good
and spreads the love