haven't posted in ages

dude.
it's been too long.
depression just kicked me in the ass.
BIG frickin time.
insurance is assigning me a clinical care manager.
babysitter for short.
but, good intentions of the health insurance.
they save money and i get and remain healthy.
not a bad idea.
they don't have to send me to the hospital (saves them cash).
and i get to face this illness.
life is good.
but, seriously, this anxiety -depression.
bipolar.
manic depressions type 1 type 2
whatever the heck i have.
i accept it.
i've faced it.
but every day i am reminded of it.
but today i accept it.
i want to be healthy
for myself
my other half
and for snuggles