add it up

truth be told
add it up
so many people have faith in numbers
i've gone for letters
for words
for symbols
for meaning
oh dear me
i've offended the mathematicians of the
world
can you spell check that for me?

h

starting to write and meditate, exercise and eat healthy
well
the eating part is coming along
but hey
everyday is new
each experience is unique to the moment
life is good
i'm grateful for all i've been given and anything else in-between
inspiring
life is good
real mary oliver
read
i mean
read not real
poetry in motion

swagbucks

http://swagbucks.com/?cmd=sb-register&rb=415472

listening to indie

this is great.
i'm listening to indie as i write.
it feels great.
i just called and made a request.
let's hope they play it.
why did they go off the air?
it made me made.
like HELLO
it's good music
and a lot of the musicians are self-published or published by smaller labels.
but, hey, at least there's the internet.
since the fam' has one car i spend much more time on the internet than the car radio.
so, go figure.
but, it's THE PRINCIPLE.
is everything going to regulated and all that?
am i bitter?

5 miles walk

five mile walk
i did it
without stopping
snuggles napped most of the way
i walked
breathed in and out
felt my stomach muscles align my backbone
i did it
snuggles and i did it
i'm losing weight
counting my calories
feeling
great
the numbers are dropping
the pants are starting to fit
relief
no more cortizone rushes from the worry
from the constraint
from the shame
i am meditating
i am taking time to myself
i am doing things that make me feel good
i am being selfish
it might ruffle some feathers
but i'm feeling great
humans adapt
don't we?

blah blah

here are my thoughts
don't try to do too much
know WHY you are doing
and understand you're purpose here
is it to eat chocolate
that's cool
dedicate your life to the cacao bean
but if you're here to spread happiness
remember this in your every breath

certainty

there isn't much i am certain about. i admire those who are certain of their belief systems. certain of what their afterlife will be like. certain of where their souls were before they were born. i'm a natural questioner. why? why? where's the root? what's the cause? consequences. actions. did i create this? is this a reactionary society or are we just products of our destiny. my belief systems have morphed from when i was a kid. i think this is due to the evolution of my unique soul.
deep breath in and out.
it's so good to be writing.
feverishly.
unwittingly.
i feel great.
just great.
i don't have to sell anything.
i'm a domestic engineer which gives me a whole heck of a lot of freedom.
sometimes, it feels choices are limited and then i give myslef a thunk in my head.
like
c'mon
wake up
you've already traveled the world
you've already worked for decent pay
you've found the love of your life
you have a snuggles that lifts your soul
BE HAPPY WITH WHERE I'M AT
thunk
then i feel grateful
i look at our family
dude
i have my own family
dysfunctional as all hell
but, we're a family!

writing thinking taking expressing creativity

i don't know what it means to be normal. i admittedly, with no effort whatsoever, am not normal. as the (who is that band?) gobstopper Jawbreakers says in a song
CRAZY PEOPLE AREN'T SO FUCKING BORING.
love that line
love it love it love it
i went to dr. judith orloff's book signing at bodhi tree this last friday.
it was amazing.
she is always amazing.
i went once to santa barbara to see her for a course.
i went to a book signing at border's in westwood.
then, i went to a non-denominational spiritual place in westlake village for a full day course with her.
now, it was in west hollywood that i went to a book signing.
she was and is so upfront and honest in her writing.
so true to WHY WE ARE HERE.
she's helped me understand my emotions and processing other people's emotions/
she call people like us empaths.
believe you me
it has been a life saver.
true life saver
i've been reading her since the 90's and told her that at the book signing.
she had some good insight about a family member for me.
she rulz.

spirituality

somestime i work so hard at being spiritual that i forget i'm a human being. my business card even reads human being. how could i forget. this esoteric stuff gets to my head. i judged someone the other day -- totally regretted it. but, don't even know the person well enough to know if i pissed them off.
ah well.
moveon
moveforward
life is presence
don't stay in the past
stop building the future
you're missing out on today
the birds chirping
the baby laughing
the baby learning to say hi
the birds laughing and inviting a new guest to the home

year anniversary arriving soon

IT'S ALMOST BEEN A YEAR OF BLOGGIN
way to go
let's go get ice cream

numberals are illegal in your namegotta run

did you know that in the states "it's illegal to have numberals in your name" when you go for a name change?
i didn't know that?
i'm a master
genius
hiding in the shells of a domestic engineer
conserving energy
by
unplugging things
almost
obsessively
just implementing a good change
it's freaking everybody else OUT
out out
anywhere
anyone should bare
can somebody change the station
dtv makes this a slim slim
not enough
but
possibility
listening
secretly
to the
silent witness
within mysoul
DEEPAK chopra
answered my question
today
what a way to start the day
isn't it a great day to be alive?
is it already 5:47

why do you writetengo

why do you write
who do you write to
who do you sing to
the universe?an ex?
a person who doesn't even exist
rumi says we are just a shadow
;like that
wishing i had the context
i'm learning how to speak arabic
soy aprendido cual hablar espano
my vecino esta la perfecta especio apredir espanol
mis veconios son los maestros
el gente la genta trabaja en las tiendas locales

beautiful

beautiful
to listen to music
2b in silence
2b
to be
start with your best line first
start with your beginning
know your ending
even if you don't use it
trust the process
interesting lyrics i'm listening to
i had this damn enlightenment
we were better off as animals
like that
who is this?

moi

just trying to solve the mystery of me
moi
ana
i
yo
what is the spiritual translation of me?
no I
least of you
me
i
rhyming?
mystery?
mysticism
magic

question

does anybody know how to add a "button"?

baby trekker/ mom's view

my want a baby trekker for our snuggles
for our trip overseas
http://www.babytrekker.com/
http://mymomsview.com/index.php/2009/02/baby-trekker-baby-carrier/
coolio!

fact interwoven with fiction

I used to love, love, love writing fiction. Almost addicted to it. Now, I find the challenge of writing out my truth quite.......hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...........similar to a hike. Sometimes you don't think this next hill is a possibility. But, once the hike is completed..
i just
think
DAMN!
da...amn!