trippiest dream of my life

i just had the trippiest dream of my life. it's the kind where, like...it was really personal. very healing. and i think it revealed a lot about myself. i think it unlocked some blocked energy from being >>>> i don't even like that word....i think it's more about dominationi th\\\i think the wor dis too emcompassingtoooeasy...so for now, i am comfortable with the word domination i believe that there is an ancestral tapestry...spiritual tapestry, if you may about domination in each of our individual cells...our beings. each of our soul possess a human being. but, it's much, much more complicated than that. i'm trying to stick on the subject of domination and dna...i woke up from a profoundly healing dream...so healing, i believe, it woke up the baby with a cry.....it's 2:48 am on sat to sunday morning. normally i sleep the night through. it was such an interesting dream. there was this guy that seemed familiar........he sang the last note of a song ....he was in disguise and he was from lifetimes a go. i don't even believe in reincarntion which makes it interesting that i don't believe in it and i'm dreaming of it. anyway, there was a band like the temptations and he had to take his costume off to recognize me..........anyway, then they were asking me mentally ill questions and each of them felt like being raped and i thought "i have to write this down in screenplay format", shoot it, edit it and give it to that nurse at cedars sinai so she understands why it's so difficult to be asked those questions. long story short it felt like a chill....like i had walked through a chill.........maybe of healing or truth..........and then i woke up................who knows? i deeply understood that rape was about ancestrial anger.........people not letting go of a grudge........weird...........really ........... weird.............now that i'm awake i don't have that feeling of connectedness to the universe....oh yeah and hamid (my dear hamid) was asking me to take medication because i was getting "weird" and i undersood that i had these weird past-life visions and we were in a new, narrower, apartment.... and he was very understanding but gave me the pills like a nurse and i swallowed them and there were like, three or four.then next when aya was sleeping i put her pinky down and told her she is so pure i love her so much and i understood that she is closest to the Creator of The Universe..yes, this deserves capital letters..................she doesn't have any grudges....well, i wasn't scared when i awoke, but, i was crying and i realized i needws to forgive my mama bear and i even started up writing the draft in my yahoo account in my mind(in my dream). i think the point was to forgive my mom and then i'm not a rapist! i won't be using control or domination. i won't be bad. i'll be sending good vibes to myself. waking mind returing. now just because i think it's a good idea i'm going to go back to sleep, good night.