it was either the fava beans or the japanese extract stevia that attacked my body. or my body was attacking. i had an allergic reaction to them this fourth of july. crazy weird. it started thursday the third and by the fouth i had swelled eyes and lips. weird. strange. i've never had an allergic reaction that quite hit me like this one. why, it makes me grateful for my life. my throat could have swollen and left me without the ability to breathe.
yes, sansei.
good to be alive.
good to be breathing.
good to be human.
it's a strange thing.
this particular allergic reaction left me feeling needy.
still, the steroids, shutting down my auto immune system pulse in my body.
the doctor warned me it would play tricks with my anxiety.
he was accurate.
i'm reading a lot of the new earth.
and, am surprisingly feeling quite well.
it's strange though.
i don't feel my normal self.
these strange chemicals helping and pushing away the allergic reaction change me.
i'm sensitive.
maybe more than others.
but, who would i have to compare it with?
a flame flickers as i write.
things feel tight.
i feel like my blogging hasn't been up to par.
must blame the fava beans!!!!!!!!!!!!!
blame to the beans.
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