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sometimes professional artists can spend weeks on just one image. using an artistic image to create a buzz and sell a product. i've been in personal conflict over selling out and selling things. on one hand, we need money to pay rent so we have a home to rest our heads for the family. on the other hand, i have no interest in worshipping money. i think there's a little bit of confusion in these great states. Oh yeah, I'm trying to get back to writing in capital letters. This is a new habit for me. I've been writing underhand or little letters for years and years. But, back to images. I have filmmaking aspirations. I sometimes beat myself up over not studying it more. But, truth be told, I've taken several cinematography and screenwriting classes. I hold true to my dreams. I don't believe in being a slave to my dreams.
Again, back to images. I'm freestyling writing. So, dear reader, I may jump subjects on you. Freestyle writing is the best reflection of how my minds works. Sometimes, I want to be friends with neurologists. I'd like to better understand the brain, the mind, imagination...being a human being. It's so complex. But, I feel the most comfortable in my skin when I am near water. When I was a kid I remember collaging a washing machine box with images of waves. I always understood that I feel the most comfortable in water. I also meditated in this box. It was a strange habit and in hindsight it was an odd choice, but, again, I stayed true to my soul's integrity. I've been pretty good at that throughout my life. It's pretty deep. I always do things that I think will bring me happiness. I always aim for a positive choice. I don't think an infinity of happiness is achievable as a human being. Why, even the Dalai Lama must have moments of rage and sadness. I think it's our job to really feel our emotions, not to mask them. I am in conflict sometimes about mediation. But, let's blog about that another day. Today, I'd like to communicate how much an image can have an impact on someone. When I subscribed to Surfing or Surfer magazine when I was a kid I read a really cool article about Madagascar. I cannot remember what the writer wrote, but, like a miracle I remember the image in that magazne article. It had local Africans playing in the ocean. To this day, I want to visit the coast of Madagascar. This image was the spark that has sustained my voyage to visiting many countries across our globe. I don't think governments and map lines divide us. I think we all have much more in common than we can imagine. I am grateful to the photographer, to the camera, and the film develeoper who brought that image of Madagascar to my doorstep. Maybe I wouldn't be who I am if it wasn't for that image.